I am having a very hard time. My darling sweet babygirl and absolute love of my heart, (besides my husband), has been gone 2 years this Dec 28. She lived 18 long happy loving years and was stuck to my side. She was so amazing. We had such a bond... indescribible. She was so frail 2 years ago. I did not want to make "that desicion". But she needed to be in a happier more peaceful place. And she did not fight the vet as she always did. I think she knew he was going to make her feel better. I told her thank you for being my special babygirl and always being there for me but her job is done and it was ok now and I hugged her and sobbed and she purred so loud in my ear and I know it took all of her stregth to do that. I put her down and held her head as she went to sleep and kissed her a ton of times with tears. I know she is in a happy place now no longer suffering. I just miss her more than anything right now. My Silver was my babygirl and my heart aches so much for her.