I can't believe it. I am fuming. I just got an invoice saying I have -$1.48 in my checking, and I have virtually nothing in my savings. I'm just so SICK of this happening, I try and keep track, and I usually know when I'm very low, but I honestly was positive I had $30+ in the account. On Wednesday I deposited a $90 check, and withdrew $30 cash for gas. On Thursday, I wrote a $40 check for my riding lesson, as usual. AND, on Wednesday when I walked out of the credit union with a little deposite slip saying that I had $75 and some change in my account.
NOW TODAY I GET THAT INVOICE TELLING ME I'VE OVERDRAWN!!!?!?!?!?!

I never have any money, it's a huge stressor for me. Most times that I am driving my car it's in fear I won't run out of gas in the middle of the road. (It's happened before more than once) All of my money goes to my weekly riding lessons, which honestly are the highlight of every week. I'd do it every day if I could. I used to clean the barn in exchange for free lessons, but I had to drive 30-45 minutes each way to get to the barn, and that was three days a week, so it ended up costing me $30 and about 8 hours, which my parents wanted me to stop since I only was saving $20 each week, but that's a lot, now I'm thinking I should have stayed on with the job, no matter how much time it was wasting, but I can't since they've tried something new.

I have a very nice job right now that pays $8 an hour, the only problem is I have been asking for a minimum of 14 hours a week, and even started asking for 20 but I still get a maximum of about 12, it's usually more like 10 a week. I've applied at more than 14 other places, and most of them were rather rude. The two interviews I got told me they'd call and let me know, but I never heard a word back. I worked at Walgreens for 3 weeks as my first job, and it was incredibly taxing on my mind and self esteem, so I quit asap, but I'm starting to want that job back. All the worrying I do is starting to give me more frequent migraines and heartburn. It's especially hard now that I'm moving in two months so now no one wants to hire me. Here's the list of places I've been rejected at.

Petsmart (three times even when they had a "Now Hiring" sign)
Petco (Never called back)
Serpent Safari (never called back and made me drive 30 minutes for a 5 minute interview to ask me the exact same questions I answered on the phone)
Claires (three locations)
AMC Theatres
Borders Books and Music
Wet Seal
Papyrus Stationery
Flash Digital Portraits
Color Me Mine
Hot Topic
Aeoropastale (or whatever it's called)
Blockbuster
Michaels Crafts
the kennel and doggy daycare down the road, I worked there for a day but never got my tax info into them on time so they've been giving me the silent treatment.
Some of these places had codes against my hair, and I (reluctantly inside) TOLD them I'd dye it black if I got the job. I did dye it black anyway, back in April, and I hated it so much. It made me look and start to feel ill and sullen.


Sorry, I just needed to get that out of my system.