This is getting serious

[catnapper]

I know I haven't been around much lately. Here's why: Hubby's blood pressure issues have been getting very serious lately. I've been a mess with worry about him. He has constant tightness in his chest now and often stops to take deeps breaths and puts his hand on his chest. To say I'm freaked is an understatement.

He's gone for a battery of tests. He's even started seeing a therapist for dealing with stress and anxiety. He's on two blood pressure meds and his BP is scary-high despite the two medications.

Today he wore a heart monitor all day and goes back tomorrow to get it off to see what it might show. He kept a journal all day as to what he was doing, at what time, and how he felt at that time.

I think it finally hit him BIG TIME this afternoon with the heart monitor test. He's been a bit scared all along but I think today seriously put it all into perspective. Especially having to write everything down and how often he feels tightness or breathlessness.

I myself feel like a zombie. I'm exhausted but can't sleep. I feel emotionally and physically spent all the time. I worry about him and what I'd do if anything ever happened to him. I told him tonight that I spent a long time looking for him and I don't want to lose him just yet.... I might want to kill him at times but killing him should be MY job, not his own doing I love my big guy and I can't imagine my life without him. SIGH.

Anyone spare some of those famous PT prayers?

[Karen]

He'll be in our prayers, that this current difficulty be the wake-up call that he needs to make some changes to be around for a long time to come.

[moosmom]

Kim,

I know you tried to call me, but I was at work and couldn't answer. I got out late and didnt want to call you at 10:39 pm.

You've got thoughts and prayers coming from Connecticut.

(((((((HUGS)))))) and love from
Donna and crew

Pssssssssst get rid of the kids!!!

[Catty1]

Kim - PT Prayers are yours and his!

I am glad he is finally seeing a therapist, and keeping a journal (even for one day). He is being pro-active in solving this...! A good thing.

(I hope his daughter is not contributing to this...but if he has started therapy, maybe that will bode well for everyone. Especially if she starts therapy too!)

HUGS and more PT Prayers for you.

[jennielynn1970]

I'm so sorry to hear that this is happening again Kim.

Are Cam and his mom both back in the picture, or just Cam? Does she realize how much effect she has on her father's life? These kids really need a wake up call.

Big hugs adn prayers going out to you and your family.

[Catty1]

Jenn - I agree. But from what I remember, it's Dad's turn to give the wake-up call. I hope his therapy helps.

{{{{hugs}}}} and more prayers to Kim's home.

[K9karen]

Holy crap, Kim. How scary! I know I'm not one to talk, but medical science can only do so much. I hope hubby starts to take better care of himself so he can be with you so you can celebrate your 75th anniversary together. It's horrible what stress can do.

[jenluckenbach]

Prayers being said constantly.

[Medusa]

My PT friends are always on my prayer list. Prayers going out for both your husband and you. Peace to you both........

[Rachel]

I can understand how very scary this must be for him. His own health and well being have to be a priority for him and the whole family. It is good to know that he has been getting some serious evaluation of his heart and some help for dealing with the stress.

[Freedom]

Sorry to read of all the worry you have.

I was pleased to see he is now seeking help with a therapist; that is a huge step in the right direction IMO.

Prayers from RI.

[sparks19]

You definitely has our prayers. I really hope this is something they can get under control. Until then prayers are on the way.

[Maya & Inka's mommy]

How absolutely scary.... !! I would freak out too!! I hope you get answers asap, not knowing is the worst part.
You are both in my prayers Kim!!

[caseysmom]

I am glad he is getting some help for his stress and his health. He seems like a big sweet teddy bear.

[joycenalex]

kim, i'll be keeping you all in my prayers. do your and his doctor(s) know how lousy BOTH of you are feeling?