Cosmo has kidney disease. They did multiple tests on him & the 2 tests for kidney disease were off the chart. He is now on dialysis. They showed me how to administer it. I gave him 350 cc's at the vets. I have to drop him off tomorrow at 8am. I will leave him there & they will administer the dialysis and keep an eye on him & see how he is doing. Then they'll administer it again Wednesday night & I will pick him up. Then I have to do the same thing on Thursday & possibly on Friday.

I bought him some K/D kibble & canned food. When we got home from the vets he ate some food. I was so happy. But right now he is laying under the bed. Not sure if it's because it's hot out. I don't have the a/c on because I thought it might make him cold.

I feel awful. I feel like it's my fault. When I took my pets for their annual check-up last month, the vet suggested I put Cosmo on K/D but I just poo-poo'd it. Then the vet said that I may have stressed Cosmo out by being gone for 1.5 weeks. So I feel really guilty.

I will take each day at a time. If dialysis doesn't work, I will put him to sleep. The thing that kills me is that other than not eating, he really seems to be okay.

Cats can have kidney transplants but they cost about $10,000. Angel Memorial in Boston could perform it. I think about all those wealthy people in the world that have so much money they don't know what to do with it so they buy house after house & SUV after SUV. I would give anything to have $10,000 in my pocket to give Cosmo a new kidney.

I feel I let Cosmo down. I promised him so many things in life (like a house with a fenced in yard so he could run & enjoy the grass). But I was never able to give him that.

I'm so sorry Cosmo.