Some thoughts... (and "special bond" pics)

[Kirsten]

Maybe you have noticed that I wasn't around much lately. One reason was that I had to work a lot, but I also have to admit that I'm not feeling well these days. It's my job situation that's depressing me; there's a bad atmosphere in the office lately, a lot of pressure, and I don't know how to interpret the entire situation, and I fear I may lose my job sooner or later. If that's the case, I'm ruined.

I fear the future very much because I have no one to back me up, I'm all alone here with my girls. Could be that I'm just burned out at the moment, I really need a break and hope I can take the next week off.

When I lose my job, I would lose my apartment, too, and I wouldn't know if I could keep the girls in such a case. New jobs are hard to find in Germany these years. I think it would be easy to rehome Lily, but what would become of Luna? Nobody would adopt a cat with constant bladder problems, that's peeing and pooping outside the litter box and that needs permanent medical treatment. However, it would break my heart to give my girls up, they are the most important thing in my life.

Six years to the day, I brought Luna home, and I often wonder what would have become of her if somebody else but me would have adopted her. Would she get a proper treatment, or would she have been abandoned or dropped at the shelter when her peeing problems began? I know that not everyone would have the patience I have, people tell me that all the time. But I love her very very much and would never give her up.

Luna and I really have a special bond. Today, at her Gotcha Day, I took some pictures of us. I hope they show how much we love each other:












Now I apoligize for this more or less pointless post, but I'm just so depressed and burned out these days, and mentally and physically exhausted....

Kirsten

[catlover4ever]

(((HUGS))) Kirsten, I hope all will turn out OK for you. Sounds like the office is really burning you out and getting to you.....I know that feeling all to well with the office I work in.

I love the pictures that you posted of you and Luna....how very, very special. I especially love the last one of Luna.....looks like she has the biggest smile on her face...such contentment.

Cheer up, take some time off and just let your two wonderful girls give you all the love and attention that you deserve. (((HUGS))) Meg

[Kirsten]

Thank you! I'm sorry that you experience the same in your office!

I used to love my job, but things there have changed so much lately.

Kirsten

[jenluckenbach]

I feel very badly that your work situation is so terrible. A person spends a good deal of time at their job and to feel nothing but displeasure IS depressing. You will constantly be in my prayers for a brighter future.

The photos are fabulous!!!

[catnapper]

Kirsten, I am sorry to hear that things haven't picked up since last you spoke of work I know there's something better out there for you and wish you all the best luck in finding it soon!

On a postive note, I can really see just how much Lady Luna loves her meowmie. She's a gorgeous little girl and yes, she deserves all the love and care you give her.

[Kirsten]

Thank you, Jen and Kim!

It's true, Luna and Lily are a huge comfort. I wouldn't know what to do without these little fur kids.

Kirsten

[Barbara]

Kirsten, just try to take it one day at a time. Things are bad- but you remember you have got out of it already one time and whatever happens can be better again. Things in life are up and down. First it is not sure you will lose your job and if you lose it there may be another - the situation with jobs all over is not as bad now as it was one year ago.

I love these pictures of you and Lily

[Maya & Inka's mommy]

Aw Kirsten, those pics are sooooo precious! You two are made for each other; just look at that content face of Luna on this pic

Don't give up to soon, Kirsten..... ! You just activated the "PT-prayers-selfhelp-club --> meaning: contact any of us, we are ALL ready to help you!!

Keep up the good spirits, okay!

[caseysmom]

Isn't it hard to love our pets so much and instead of worrying about yourself if you lose a job, bless you, your first worry is for your babies. Do you have unemployement in Germany? Also where would you live? Surely your babies could live there too.

[orangemm]

Kirsten, I can sympathize with you; it's horrible to work in an environment where things are unsettle and uncertain, esp. if you don't know what the outcome will be.

I've been in that boat, too, and hated the stress and anxiety it brought.

Don't ever give up hope. When things happen they happen for a reason and in the end it usually turns out for the best (although now you cannot even imagine that).

Your pictures (as always) are superb. You know how to capture those sweet furry faces! Maybe you are in the wrong line of work...ever think about photography?

(hugs) to you.......

[catmandu]

Thank God That I Am Retired, And Was Able To Have Enough Money To Keep My Cats And Home.
I Pray That You Can Keep Your Job Until You Can Find Something Better.
I Know This Is Hard To Do, But Please Dont Worry As That Just Makes Everything Worse.
And Adds More Stress.
The Found Cats And I Are Praying For You, Lily And Luna.

[rg_girlca]

First off, I just want to say that this is NOT a pointless thread Kirsten.
Who else could you turn too in your hour of need? No one, but your sure can turn to your friends here on PT. I pray that your girls will be able to help you through this difficult time that you are having right now and that everything will turn out for you in the end.

You look so lovely in these pictures with your pretty Luna.

Try and keep the faith Kirsten, think positive thoughts and take one day at a time.

This tough time will end. Just know in your heart that you don't need to go it alone. We will always be here for you.

((((((HUGS))))))

[Kirsten]

Thank you very much for your support! It means a lot to me that there are people out there who understand what I'm going through...

And yes, there is a lot of unemployment here in Germany; it may get a little bit better compared to the last year, but my area is badly affected, and there are no full time jobs here. I may have to move away from here in case that I lose my job. This fear of existence is always hanging over me like a dark cloud, especially when things get hard at work.

I really hope I can take the next week off, I need some time to recover. I'm feeling very tired and exhausted.

Kirsten

[Sonia59]

I am very sorry to hear that you don't feel well, Kirsten. OK it's easy to say, but as long as you still have your job, please remain positive, you never know what will happen or will not happen
Take that week off if you can and have some rest, it will help

Your pictures are very beautiful as usual! You two look beautiful!

[catmandu]

I had the same problem Kirsten, and My Dear Mother told me not to worry until it happens.
Worrying about what may happen is pointless , Son.
Just go in there and do your best, in the end thats all you can do.
My Mother, I miss her words of advice.