I know you guys will bear with me while I tell you how I felt today, I would only share these feelings with my husband and my fellow PT friends.
I went out shopping at the mall today, there is a pet shop there, of course its kitten time again in NZ so I know there will be kittens,infact last week there were four real cuties, I loved them all , but today there was a new kitten, just one, and she was on the counter being handled and stroked and played with by the assistants in the shop and anyone who wanted to stroke her, of course I volunteered.
She was beautiful, a lovely calico I think you call her, she had white face , underbelly, with black dot on her bottom, lovely splashings of ginger black and white on her upper body, and ginger ears, apparently she had been hand raised by humans, so she was very loving and content and used to humans, I could see that by her lovely nature.
Yes I fell in love instantly with her, I stayed a while and then forced myself to leave, I swear my heart fell a foot or two, as from then on I could not enjoy my shopping , which I really had been looking forward to, and I could not get my mind off her, I had even named her Harmony in my mind.
So half an hour later I went back, only to find she had been sold, I swear the first time I left knowing I could not take her, I had tears in my eyes, this time I felt real bad, she had gone to a home with three young boys who had just lost their cat or kitten, when I heard that, I felt even worse, I know I was being unfair, not even knowing theses people, but I Just could not bear to think maybe that baby would be handled roughly by three young boys, lets hope their mother is strict about these sort of things, I guess I will never know.
I came home feeling really low and burst into tears, I felt such a bond of love for her the minute I touched her, I guess it was not meant to be, or she would be home with me right now.
Many times before I have managed to just walk on, thinking how cute they are etc, but today was different, I think I had better stop looking in the pet shops from now on, I am only torturing myself.
Sorry to rant on and on, but I just had to share this with you all, as I know you guys really understand, and have probably been there too.
YEP Jen and payitforward almost made it to three eh?
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