Ash's time has come.....

**Barbara** · 02-12-2010, 01:12 PM

Carole, my heart aches for you and Ash- and even more for you.
I am sure you will know what is the right thing to do but it is so heartbreaking to do it.

**carole** · 02-12-2010, 01:20 PM

Yes it is a difficult day indeed, i think having three days to think about it, only makes it worse, i have gone through it in my head so many times,how it will be etc, etc,wish i could think about something else, but i cannot.

He is under the car at the moment, that is where he goes now, i guess he likes it there because i cannot bother him anymore, he just wants to be left in peace, and i don't blame him, i have been trying to offer him food continuously all day in the hope he will eat, and he gets fed up of it, but i just can't give up on him, i know he has given up, and i almost feel the same way, but i just have to keep trying without infringing on his need to be left alone, but is a tad hard to do that.

**phesina** · 02-12-2010, 01:26 PM

Love to you and Ash and your family, Carole.

We are with you.

**caseysmom** · 02-12-2010, 01:33 PM

**RICHARD** · 02-12-2010, 02:00 PM

Carole,

I am sorry to hear the news.

Sending you best wishes and thoughts across the miles.

**RedHedd** · 02-12-2010, 02:55 PM

{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}} we are with you

**dehlers43** · 02-12-2010, 03:00 PM

Carole, my heart goes out to you......my vet told me that when the kidneys start to fail the kitty gets a really bad taste in its mouth which makes food taste so bad it doesn't want to eat....that's what happened with my Charles. He was still perky mentally (considering he was almost 18 yrs old) and still responded to being loved up but I too knew it was time to say goodby.....
Sending all of you warm fuzzy thoughts......

**carole** · 02-12-2010, 04:00 PM

Ash wanted to be outside, but even though it is warm today, there is a real strong wind, i just could not let him stay out there, he did not put up any fight and is asleep on the couch right now,he is too weak to do anything much now,he still responds to his name, i took one last pic on my phone, and it is a good one, but you can see the sadness in his eyes,i have one pic of him already on my start up on the phone when he was much better and you can certainly see the difference.

I have questioned whether i was doing the right thing, especially when he ran upstairs last night, but today i have no doubts it is his time, it is paining me to have to wait until 1pm, one part of me wants to have him here for much longer, the other wants me to be able to put him out of his misery now,horrible feeling, my stomach feels so sick right now.

I made up his little box to bury him in, it is not much, just a cardboard box with some decorations i found, mostly xmas angels and the like,i may post some pics later when i feel i can. Thanks again everyone, i know you are with me at this sad time in my life and i appreciate your love and concern very much.

**slick** · 02-12-2010, 04:13 PM

I made up his little box to bury him in, it is not much, just a cardboard box with some decorations i found, mostly xmas angels and the like,i may post some pics later when i feel i can.

LES LES ALERT

We are all with you Carole. When the time comes, close your eyes and feel a milliion and one arms around you..........

You are doing the right thing. Don't question that - the last act of love you can do for him.

**RedHedd** · 02-12-2010, 04:21 PM

Fly quickly to the Bridge, sweet Ash. May your passing be peaceful. LES here too

**moosmom** · 02-12-2010, 05:27 PM

Carole, you and ash Ash are in my prayers. After lighting a candle for MooShoo, I also lit one for Ash. I will keep them going.

Know that you are loved by everyone here and feel your pain. I certainly do.

Donna

**carole** · 02-13-2010, 01:48 AM

Ash passed very peacefully today, it was the hardest moment in my life, when i came home with him i felt an inner peace, but that did not last,again i feel sad and i feel empty like this huge hole left in my life,he is with me now in his little box, i have pics but just not up to posting at the moment,he looks very cute and at peace, hubby has dug a hole under the bush in the garden and we shall bury him tomorrow, just one more night with my sweet boy, i give him pats and talk to him, i know he cannot hear me no more, but it helps me with my grief.

We had to go out to get some things from the supermarket and coming home was so sad, he was always there to greet us, it just isn't the same without Ash.

One thing that did make me smile was Ellie, when steve had dug Ashes grave, she goes over there has a sniff and pops inside it sitting up, i took a pic of her on my mobile, as it was so cute, i told her you don't want to be going in there sweetie.

He only weighed 3.7 kilos at the vets, this was my big fella who used to weigh 6.7 kilos, he was just wasting away.

It has been a very tough day, i am emotionally drained, think i will have an early night, thanks again everyone, and i tell you all the way in the car to the vets i was finding it so hard, i just kept saying to myself all your PT friends are with you, be strong, and it helped me to compose myself, i was scaring Ash i think, and i just had to stop for his sake.

Goodnight all from me and Aships a brave kitty to the end.

One last thing if anyone could make me a memoriam up i would be ever so grateful,just a pic of him with some nice words,something i can keep for my treasured memories.