My Black Labby, Emerson

[K9karen]

i can barely breathe. I can't tell you how sorry I am, Anna and Mark.

I'm getting out my camera.

[Taz_Zoee]

I am so sorry to hear about Emerson.
RIP Sweet Emerson.

[Kfamr]

Anna,

This is just too much. I am so sorry to hear about your sweet boy. Such a young sweet boy. I had him in my thoughts but hadn't posted a reply since we are away from home.

I hope you find comfort somehow. I will keep you all in my thoughts ~ hugs to Malone for me, please?

Kay

[kallisto4529]

This is just a horrible shock, I am so very sorry for you and your family, I do not know any of you but I have seen the pics you have posted of your beautiful Emerson and what a HAPPY boy he truly was, you could always see how very loved he was, he just glowed with it, both he and Malone. My prayers are with all of you at this horrible time. He will have lots of angels to play ball with, they will all take care of him and make sure he is never alone, always remember he knew how much you loved him.
RIP sweet Emerson, Godspeed to the Bridge.

[wolf_Q]

I'm shocked...I'm so sorry to hear about Emerson. He was a very special boy. I remember when you brought him home, he was the perfect companion for your family. {{HUGS}} He will be missed by all of us.

[cloverfdx]

Oh no Anna and family i am so sorry. Rest easy Emerson .

[Cookiebaker]

I'm having such a hard time sleeping tonight. I keep waking up every hour and I'm still in such shock. I just want to talk to someone, so I thought I would just post my rambling thoughts here. I am so thankful for pet talk. I am reminded of why this is such a great community. My friends in the real world don't really understand, I don't think. I am so thankful that I can come here and type out my grief and get it out maybe? I don't know.

i was remember when we got him, and what a strange coincidence it all was. The thread where we got him is here and it is post #57. He was so right for us, he fit in here perfectly. I can't believe it is barely over 3 years later, and he is gone.

We went down last night to say our goodbyes. Our vet cried with us. She is a great lady and I think she is hurting just as much as we are. I think she feels responsible because she missed some clues. They are going to do an autopsy/biopsy at their expense to try and get some answers for us. It was hard to see him, so hard. He was peaceful though. It looked like all I had to do was snap my fingers, and he would jump up and want to play. But he was gone, really gone.

Right now, things just aren't making sense -- the antibiotic that he was on does NOT have a side effect of liver issues. It does have side effects of eye issues, and Emm wasn't suffering from any of those side effects at all. So we are now wondering if he had an underlying issue that was causing the bladder problems, but was also a systemic problem? I guess time will tell. But I would think that something would have shown up in all the bloodwork we had done at the beginning. Or maybe it was something entirely different like an intestinal blockage. I don't know why they didn't just do xrays right off the bat to rule that out? I think its because they thought that he wasn't holding down food, but holding down water.

Dr. C. told us a little bit more about her last few minutes with him. She was at the office until 10:30 that night, and took some time to give him some water and take him out. He puked up the water, but peed fine. She then went and gave him fluids under his skin (they had decided to put off giving him the IV until the next morning) when she noticed that his gums were bleeding. This is also a sign of problems with the liver, I guess. She gave him a shot of Vitamin K, and put him in his crate. She said that he was resting peacefully. He died sometime during the night in his sleep. She said he wasn't frantic or seeming to be suffering. I guess I take comfort in that. I just wish so much that he wasn't alone. If I had known, if I had only known that there was a possibility of him going, I would have camped out with him.

How do you tell another dog that his buddy isn't coming back?? Malone is searching, looking for Emerson to come back. He barks at any little noise outside, but not because he is worried about the noise. Its like he keeps looking for Emerson to come bark with him, and when he doesn't come he just lays down with his nose in his paws again. Last night, he laid right down on Emerson's favorite toy, a stuffed birdhouse, that was still laying in the living room where Em had left it. They loved to play tug-of-war with that thing, and I think Malone was missing his play partner. There were a million other places he could have laid down, but he kept coming back to that spot. Mark was late coming home from a meeting last night, and Malone was so excited when the car pulled up. But as soon as Mark came in alone, he got all sad again, and just laid down with his head in his paws again. he wasn't excited to see Mark at all.

There were two things that happened yesterday that were especially hard. I had a whole bunch of errands to run. The first place I went to, I pulled out my wallet, and there at the front of all my pictures was one of Emerson. I couldn't get back to the car fast enough before the tears came again. And another errand was to go to the town office to renew their rabies tags. I had written the check out for $13 last Thursday or something, and it wasn't until I got there that I realized I only needed half of that amount. Why yesterday????? Why did I have to go to the town office yesterday?? Couldn't it have been last week or next week? So I stood in line feeling so stupid as I tried to explain to the lady that I needed to pay cash instead of the check I had written out, and that it was only one dog, not two. It was horrible.

I want to post some pictures. I have been going through the albums on my computer and there are so many great pictures that I have posted already, and some that I never posted. So I would like to do that, and will work on that today.

If you read through this whole thing, thank you. if not, I totally understand. Thank you again for all the kind words, thoughts and prayers. I really don't know what I would do without pet talk.

[chocolatepuppy]

I'm so sorry about Emerson. I just couldn't reply yesterday. I guess we'll never know why these things happen, but surely Emerson has a purpose at the Rainbow Bridge.

How do you tell another dog that his buddy isn't coming back??

That's so hard. A lot of extra attention and loving is all you can do.
I hope you at least find out 'why' Emerson died. Maybe it will help to understand. You'll be in my thoughts.{hugs}

[Pam]

Anna I am so glad there is a place like Pet Talk also so that you had somewhere to come to pour out your heart. Your post was wrenching and brought back all of those raw feelings that we, who have lost a dog, have felt. I hope you are sleeping finally but it is probably a fitful sleep.

I hope the autopsy will give you the answers. I have only had one dog pass away without knowing the cause. She was dead on my sofa one day after work and I had left a healthy dog in the morning. The vet assumed it was a heart attack but it is more likely that it was bloat. What grieves me to this day is that she, like Emerson, died alone. I am glad you are going ahead with the autopsy. I told the vet I didn't want one but I have wished a zillion times that I had one. I think there is a lot of guilt when the cause is not clear (a lot of 'what could I have done to prevent this?' sort of thinking goes on).

Reading about Malone's reaction is making the tears flow. They were buddies and now he will need to go on alone. Maybe they communicated on some level Anna. Maybe Malone knows that Emm was not feeling well and has already begun mourning. I wish I could give these (((hugs))) to you in person, but please know that we are all here for you in whatever way we can be. Please do post those pictures. I know looking at them will bring the tears but it would be a wonderful memorial to your Emm and the special boy he was.

[Pawsitive Thinking]

Anna, I read your entire post and it didn't take long for the tears to start flowing.

There is nothing we can say that will ease your pain but I do hope you get some comfort from knowing that we are all thinking of you. Like others have said, I hope the autopsy can give you an answer.

Take care you. Big hugs to Malone

[ChrisH]

Anna {{{{hugs}}}}
can't write anything, vision is blurred with tears.

[anna_66]

Oh Anna, so many of us here can relate with all the hardships your going through now and I'm sure that our hearts are breaking right along with yours.

Even thought your not around much any more I'm so glad that you come here to share your feelings and ramblings with us. When Angus died I just felt I couldn't talk about him but now I wish I had, it might have made me feel better and I hope it's made you feel a little more at ease, at least for a little bit.

I'm glad to hear the vet is doing an autopsy and will try and get to the bottom of what the problem was.

Lots of (((HUGS)))
Anna

[Vela]

I have been thinking of you all since yesterday morning. I wish there was something could say to make it stop hurting. Your post had me in tears again, and I know how much your hert hurts. Reading about Malone made me feel so sad. I know he misses his buddy too. I hope in the pictures and the memories you can find some happiness at some of the good times. Maybe not right now, but someday. Thinking of you gusy today and hoping you find a little comfort in knowing he's still there watching over you. He'll be waiting for you.

[Logan]

I have had you on my mind, Anna, nonstop, since I read your original post yesterday. My heart is just heavy and I don't know what to say to you that will make you feel better. If I had the right words, I'd be saying them to myself, over and over, and to all the others who have suffered such great loss in their lives.

You know, we are your real world. We're real. We hurt and agonize with you as if it were our own family member that departed. This is a wonderful place, with wonderful, real friends, who share one precious gift in common, our love for our animals.

I realized, this morning, that tomorrow is the first anniversary of losing Zipper. Like Emerson, he was with us for too short of a time. I'm not sure there is ever long enough, to tell you the truth, but it is a different kind of grief when you let them go after they have lived full, healthy lives. That has at least been my experience. No less painful, just a bit easier to swallow. You didn't get that with Emerson and we didn't get that with Zipper or Lilly.


I'm not a good one to talk with, probably, unless you need to have a good crying session. That, I can do, very easily.

Please know that I am thinking of you and Mark and your precious babies and you will be in my prayers.

Logan

[k9krazee]

Anna, I read this last night but could not bring myself to reply I still am at a loss for words but I wanted to let you know that you, Mark and Malone are in my thoughts. (((((hugs)))))) Thanks for posting the link to the thread of Em's introduction to PT, I wasn't here at the time and that whole thread brought a smile to my face.

Rest Easy Mr. Emerson, you will never be forgotten.