Well, lemme see how to put this so it doesn't sound completely moronic...
Well, I tried.
OK, the other night I was at a sleepover with a few friends. We started talking about guys & boyfriends (which they all had boyfriends before), and one of my friends mentioned I hadn't ever had a boyfriend. I got really weird looks from all of them, and one person was even giggling. Then they started to get involved; why I hadn't gone out with a guy before, if my mom would let me, etc. It was hurtful & annoying at the same time.
Well today my friend asked this guy out, and he said yes. For some reason, I'm kinda upset. Not upset that she got a new boyfriend, don't get me wrong, I'm happy for her, but that if it was me that went up to him and asked him out, it would have been a flat-out NO. It is annoying when I talk to my friends they are all sitting on the laps of their boyfriends hugging and cuddling, with me, alone. I've been asked so many times why I hadn't gone out with a guy. Well, because nobody's ever asked me.I know I sound selfish, but I can't help it. It hurts to be "ugly" in the eyes of the guys in my school.
I'm sorry for getting all mushy and lovey, I just don't know who to talk to except my PT friends, everyone else has boyfriends and would take offence, or would just not care. I bet I sound really dumb talking about being sad because I've never had a boyfriend, or even a date. If you haven't had one, you're like such a loser in my school.
I remember creating a thread like this while back, and rambled on and on about me annoying everyone with my "on-going soap opera" about me being made fun of. But more importantly, I remember lots of PMs and posts supporting me and giving me the strength I lacked to have confidence in myself. That's why I turned to you (not to get attention and a lot of replies, but because I can trust you)
Anyways, needed to vent... It felt good too.
Britt
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