With great sadness i have to tell you, that on saturday Ash is booked in at the vets 1pm, i will be having him Put to Sleep,unless by some miracle my ole fella does a turn around, this is why i have given him until then, hoping that it will happen, he has done this before, but this time is different, i know in my heart his time is up and it would be cruel of me to let him keep going as he is.

He made a sharp decline three days ago, and so far there is no improvement,I may even have to go sooner if things get worse.

Please keep us in your thoughts, this is the hardest decision i have ever had to make, and it hurts very much, I have had a long time to prepare myself, but still it is extremely hard to do. I dreaded even making the phone call for the appointment, and they were booked out, but made an exception, and it will be my favourite vet Gabe who knows Ash well, that helps, i was shaking making that call, and now i cannot stop those tears flowing, and that awful lump in your throat you get, i don't know how on earth i am going to manage on the day, i will be an emotional mess.

I know many of you have traveled this unpleasant and tough road, so will understand how i am feeling, sick to the stomach, would sum it up nicely, a few sleepless nights and unhappy days ahead for sure, but it is time for my ole fella to be at peace now.