I'm so sick of crying.

[Kfamr]

My manager, Sarah, came over to the manager that was bagging for me and said to her, "One of our 9's need to go home at 8:30." (meaning someone who goes home at 9 needs to go a half hour early, our numbers were bad)

Think of this part, this way.. You got more hours on the clock which = more money for you!

I love when my boss asks me to stay extra hours or fill in for someone else... more money for me!

[buttercup132]

Today started out great... I didn't have school, slept in till 10, and worked at 4. Work was fine, I had this feeling of self pride for some reason, and I held my head a little higher and was a little friendlier.

My manager, Sarah, came over to the manager that was bagging for me and said to her, "One of our 9's need to go home at 8:30." (meaning someone who goes home at 9 needs to go a half hour early, our numbers were bad)

Usually, in these circumstances, the manager will single out the two or three people that are ELIGIBLE to go home, and play the "Pick a Number" game to see who gets to go home. But Sarah, FAVORING the other person, doesn't even give me a chance to TRY and go home early. Sarah is friends with the other girl, so she automatically let the other girl go home and didn't even give me a chance. Mind you, the girl she favors was doing lame ass jobs like taking baskets back, and most of the time was just sitting around doing nothing.

Now don't get me wrong, staying the extra half hour wasn't bad. It's just the fact that she isn't showing fairness and equality. Everytime I'm there, she favors this ONE girl over everyone else.

Toppping it off, she isn't even MANAGING. She is off talking to people at the service desk, wanderinig around the store, not doing her job AT ALL. It's SO irritating when you need her and have NO CLUE where she is.

*breath*

My best friends pretty much hate each other. To make a long story short, X and Y talked about dating, Y wanted to date X but thought that if something were to happen and they would break up, their friendship would be in shambles. Y said no to X, now X is being a drama queen and said that Y led her on, blah blah blah. X wants "space" from Y, and now Y is broken hearted because she feels like she ruined EVERYTHING between the three of us.


I AM SO SICK OF DRAMA.

My day started out okay, but I'm at my breaking point again. Drama, my friend and I got pulled over last night and she was a wreck, my stress-filled job, my mom, I'm just soooo tired of everything.

I can't take this anymore.

Omg thats JUST LIKE my old manager!!! Or well both. They would go out to like kfc and bring back dinner for everyone BUT ME and noone else had to pay for it either. They would also favor one person and would bring them when they went out and they would bring them for their breaks wich they extended even though there not suposed to!
They were so stupid!! UGGH I hate my old managers I'm so glad I quite my old job!
I'm sorry your going through such a tough time you can always pm and aim me and I'll talk with you.(sometime its easier to pour your heart out over the internet to people you knw(I know it makes me feel better))
I havnt gone through the same thing but a abussive childhood and crap yes Ive been there. If you cant talk to you dad in person without crying maybe write him a note. I do that cause I know I'll end up crying too if I talk to my mom in person (so I have her on msn instead)
good luck I hope things will shape up

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Today's been alright. Mom just picked me up, we went to go grocery shopping, everything was fine. We laughed, joked, had a good time.

I like having days like this where I feel like I can connect with her and we get along well with eachother. They do not come often, by any means, but they are enjoyable.

Mike... oh my gosh, you guys... I know you probably hate me, but he asked me out again (*cringe* I know, AGAIN...) and I said yes. We've been happily dating for over a month. Things are going smoothly and I couldn't be happier knowing we're together, happy and things are working and lasting.

About caring too much, I know I do, and I can't help it. I swear to GOD I wasn't born with the ability to care for myself... don't get me wrong, I shower and take CARE of myself, but when it comes to putting myself before others, I just CAN'T do it. I try so hard, and so many people have told me to take care of myself and not worry so much about people, but I can't, I just freaking CAN'T. I can't. I've never been able to do it, and probably never will. I care about you guys SO much, it's just me. I was BORN to try and make OTHER PEOPLE happy, it's what I do. It's what I've always done. I always try to make other people happy, make sure everyone else is okay before I even THINK about tending to myself. I am always last on my priority list.

You know what? I was working last night, (Sarah was there, nicer...) and X and Y came into the store together! They are friends again! I was SOOO happy seeing them laughing and linking arms with each other... my gosh. The past DAY has been great. I love it.

Things are going good, I have to go help Angie and the girls with some Girl Scout stuff tomorrow. So far so good, guys.

[Alysser]

I'm happy you had a good day!

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Me too. Jenny and Gavin just came over for a bit too. It was nice to see them.

[carole]

Megan it was lovely to read your post, i could feel your happiness,and it was good to hear, and great that you had a good time with your mother, treasure those moments, and when-ever you are feeling low or bad about her, try and focus on those times, hopefully you will experience more happy times with her and the bad ones will become less.

You know what caring as much as you do is indeed what makes you the special young lady that you are,i hope you choose a career in life where you can put your ability and skill to good use, because not everyone is like you sweetie, it is a quality about you that I admire so much, your giving , caring sweet nature.

Just be careful to try and make some time for yourself, if you are always giving and caring for others you will reach burn out and then you won't have the energy or desire to help others as you do now, so that is all we are saying.

You take care now ya here and I hope things continue to improve and you can feel this happy on a more regular basis, love ya.

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Mike and I hugged for the first time (I know, a month and our first hug was today...) but it was so wonderful. I felt so safe in his arms, and he just rubbed my back... it was so cute. And he hugged me AT WORK... we're still a little "undercover" at work, but *sigh*.

I'm just so scared... I've put my heart out on the line now. We've shared a special moment... I just HATE the feeling that he could break my heart whenever he wanted... I'm scared of being in love.

[carole]

Megan it is the risk we all take sometime in our life, you just gotta go with the flow , and enjoy the moments, and try not to think of what could happen, because it might not, yes he could break your heart, or you his, but no use thinking that way or worrying about it, just enjoy your loving relationship and take it slowly,from one worry wort to another, chill sweetie pie.

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

I've just completely crashed again.

My day was going okay, with Mike and all, and now I'm just sobbing.

I don't really want to talk about it now... just has to do with friends, self esteem, and choosing favorites... and all of a sudden it's all bunched up and let loose and i'm sobbing again.

[carole]

Aww Megan honey i wish i could be there to help you, re-assure you and give you a big hug, it will be allright whatever it is, just sleep on it and remember each day brings new things, hopefully some good ones your way, i am sorry you feel down again and just have to hope you will be feeling better tomorrow, love and hugs to you.