The Hardest Decision

[delidog]

Oh Dear Aly,
My heart goes out to you...You are making a Brave,Selfless decision.....You gave her last year...of Quality and love in her life..Even if she did not know how to accept it....

GodSpeed Dear Peka...You have Many friends waiting to help you cross The Rainbow Bridge Safely...You will feel lots of Love and Pets there also....
Aly, You have done all you can...You Gave her what No other Human was willing to.....

Rest EasySweet Peka

[lovemyshiba]

Oh Aly

What a life she had. Thank God she had her last wonderful year with you, learning what love was, and how to be with a family.
She loves you, I am sure, and she will wait for you at the Bridge.

If you cannot be in the room, that is your decision--I'm not sure if I could either-I don't even want to think about it.

God Bless you Aly, and dear sweet Peka, may she be in peace, and free of pain at the Rainbow Bridge.

{{{hugs to you and beautiful Peka girl}}}}

[Kater]

Originally posted by aly
I would be there if I thought she would care, but she never really cares or notices too much who is around her. She hates to be held and doesn't really like petting, its like she doesnt' know what it means.

I feel like you have answered your own question and justified your actions--- being on the outside of things we cannot possibly understand and cannot accurately "judge." I trust that you will do the right thing, just like giving Peka a chance to know *LOVE* was the right thing!
No one could ever not like you Aly! It's impossible!!!
(((((HUGS))))) during this difficult time.

[wolf_Q]

Aly, I'm so sorry to hear about Peka. It was a wonderful thing for you to take her and show her all the love she didn't have. Have a safe trip to the bridge, Peka.

We're facing the same thing with Smokey. I'm not sure when, some days he seems really bad and other days he seems to be getting better.

[primabella]

*HUGS* Aly.

You must do what is best for Peka. She appreciates that. And I'm sure she is very thankful for giving her such a wonderful life with you.

Have fun at the Bridge sweet Peka.

Amy, I'll be praying for Smokey.

[dukedogsmom]

Well, you've got us all in tears. We don't think you're horrible for not staying with her. I couldn't take my cat when it was his time. My mom had to do it. I had been with my cat before that one and it is very hard. I'm sure Peka knows how much you
love and care for her. I know it must be horrible to see her in this condition. Would your vet come to your house? Mine does for nothing extra. That might make it easier on you. Also, do you have any pics? I would like to see her. I hope you will feel better soon. I know it's a horribly difficult time for you. Let your other furry angels comfort you.

[slick]

Aly, please know that I'm crying for you and Peka right now. I can't even imagine how hard this last year must have been on you. Bless you for giving Peka a wonderful home for the past year and I know that she knows you love her. She obviously wants to be pain-free and the only way that can happen is if she makes the quiet journey. You did the best you could. RIP sweet Peka. Please watch for Toshie and Trixie. They will show you around your new home and would love to be your friend.

Do not feel guilty for not wanting to be there for the journey and I certainly can't pass judgment. You do what's best for you and Peka.

Hugs and love to you

[clara4457]

I am so sorry you are going through this. I admire you tremendously for taking Peka into your home and heart and allowing her to live her last days in comfort and love.

[zippy-kat]

Aly, I read this before I went to class and then sat there and cried the whole way through. My heart absolutely aches for you, friend.

When Sophie was little and it seemed we were at the vets' office every other day, I prayed that if she were to pass that I wouldn't be there. (Often, if going "naturally," bunnies scream as/when they pass.) She pulled through and I was blessed to share my home with the lil' spitfire for just over two years.

Then, we had the last tummy episode. (And, now I'm really sobbing. ) My prayers were answered, I was not with her. Do I regret it? Yes and no. I've always wondered who/where/and when was her last human contact? Were they gentle to her? Did they talk to her? What did they say? I know her passing wasn't peaceful as the vet commented, "He heard a commotion from the back..." I don't regret being there for a selfish reason... *I* couldn't have handled hearing her like that. I do regret not extensively considering having her pts; it would've been much more peaceful. But she had improved so much that last day I saw her.....

I'm crying so hard I can't even finish typing all I had intended to say.... if you are on AIM tonight -and feel like having company- I'll chat with you then. God bless you, Aly, I think you're doing the right thing for YOU *and* Peka.

{hugs}

[Candy16]

Aly, you are anything but a horrible person. It is a selfless act to end Peka's suffering when she can't make the decision for herself. She will be forever grateful, and you can rest assured that you will see her again, painfree forevermore. God bless you now and know that we are all here for you both.

[Crikit]

Aly, I don't know what to say other then you're doing the right thing helping Peka this way. You truely are one of the heroes of pet talk. I'll be on later if you want to talk, if not you'll still be in my thoughts.

[Karen]

Peka, sweetheart, when you get to the Rainbow Bridge, look there for my mom, okay? She'll be the short lady with brown curly hair who is busy passing out biscuits and hugs. You tell her we sent you to see her - she understands how sometimes being the shortest one can be hard, and that a girl has to be strong. but a long sickness even gets the best of the strong girls. You hang out near Mom, okay?

Aly, dear girl, no one will think any less of you. Sending you a good, strong hug from me, and a bunny nudge from Miss Hoppy.

[carole]

Aly please don't feel bad because you cannot be with Peka , I don't think I could either, infact when I had my budgies and mice put to sleep because they were too ill, I could not face it either.

You will be there with her in spirit, believe me.

HUGS.

[mugsy]

Peka,

Please give Smokey, Lady, Butterscotch, Dudley, and Ryu a hug and kiss from their Mom and Dad and tell them we miss them greatly. Your foster mom will miss you terribly too. May you be pain free from now on...you deserve it.

Molly

Aly, my thoughts and prayers will be with you and Peka.

[Tonya]

Aly, I am so sorry to hear that! Don't feel bad, you are doing the right thing. She'll be waiting for you at Rainbow Bridge. I know how you feel, I couldn't be present when we put Rosco down either.