I am so very sorry for your loss.All of our pets are so dear to us.This is very sad but you'll be OK.It takes time.Not that time heals everything but none of us are getting out of here alive and that means we will all meet someday.I think Rouge is resting peacefully and is waiting for her family to come to her much later.And Rouge will be your Angel forever now because Rouge knew how much you loved her.She was a very lucky Rat to have been loved so much by you.