Oh, Honey...I'm so sorry to hear about this. I can remember that same shock when I found out my dad was stage 4 pan. cancer. I think I just lived in some "dream/nightmare" world for the first few weeks, trying to absorb what the options were and what this disease meant. It really helped me to join a support group online and to read, read, read. It was very scary to find the statistics of my dads illness, but it helped prepare me to. I hate that you are so far from family now...that makes it even tougher. And the hereditary issue is enough to throw anyone over the edge. I have that same fear for my older brother, and younger ones. Hang tight sweetie. Talk to your mom a lot and read, read, read. Join that group that Jods posted. Please keep us updated. Many prayers coming your way.