Thank you all so much.

We had to head to my parents' today for an early Christmas. We were supposed to go yesterday when the whole family was there, but needless to say we didn't make it. Peanut was home alone today for 12 hours - completely alone for the first time in her life. She was so happy to see us when we got home, and is laying here under her little "heat lamp" as I type this. I think she must realize by now that Tubby is gone. I don't know how much it bothers her because they were never really close, but as long as I've had her, Tubby has been here. She essentially knows no life without him, so even though they weren't close, she has to miss him. Since she, also, is getting up there in years, and you hear so often about one going so soon after the other, that we will be watching her like a hawk to make sure she's ok.

Thank you all for the wonderful thoughts, poems and pictures. As for the pictures, please do not feel offended if I don't use them in my signature. Like I said in Donna's post, I'm not quite ready yet to start referring to him as "My RB Tubby." He is my Tubby, my big black boy. They say as long as you have the memories he's not really gone, so to me, he's not. I can't touch him or pet him or hear his purr or feel his weight as he snuggles with me, but he has not left my side.

There are so many other individual things that I want to reply to, and PM's that I need to reply to, but you must all forgive me if I sign off for the night. I didn't sleep well last night and it has been a long day, so I think I will go snuggle with my little Peanut girl for awhile. I think we both might need it.