I guess after again crying about it and talking to my friend I try to say things to stick up for myself so I will feel better about it. I hate myself for it, and I always will. She tells me to get over it but doesn't understand. She said she'd sooner give her cat up then do that to it (which is why I was crying) cause I couldn't give her up...I can't. My pets have a forever home, unless something came up where they 100% NEEDED a new home or they'd have a bad life.

I would have have the first joint of my fingers cut off if I could replace hers (honest to god) I would without thinking twice have Josies seizures. My life is less important then theirs, but the thing is I'm greedy and NEED them. And I feel they need me. Esp Josie who has been sick her whole life. My friend said some people would have put her to sleep.

I'm sorry to just say things as I did. I realize it now. But I can't stand the fact that people thing I'm a bad person or that I can't care for my pets. You guys will call me stupid, but things like this Really effect me.

My friend told me she grew up with cats and declawing as a wrong. I never knew ANYTHING about it, that it was wrong or anything till PT. I hate it more then anything. If you could feel how I am feel maybe you wouldn't hate me. I really feel you guys don't like me here. I just wish you weren't quiet so opinionated about it..(IE you're right. no other possibilities are. I was told I am immature, but to me, that is what's immature.)

I really need to put this to get over it. I'm tired of crying over things I shouldn't, but I garentee I wouldn't feel that way if those mean things weren't said. (I never got one appology btw. I was hoping from a certain person but I get I don't deserve it.) I should just leave pt. People would be happier.

No one loves their cat/dogs more then I love mine. I would give up my life style, money, everything. I would live in a box if I could give them the best. I don't have friends. They are my friends, and my life..

Just ignore me. I need to do this for my own good for nothing self. I'm going through **** right now. I would have killed myself long ago if not for my pets.

= my last post in cat general. DOn't worry.

(edit) just don't judge things you've never done you're self...