Jen sweetheart as you know there will be no quick fix, and you will have your bad and good moments, just want you to know we all understand and are here for both of those moments that you wish to share with us.

I am so happy to hear you sounding more positive, but sad to hear how unhappy this has made you, it is the old vicious cycle, when things or events come into our lives that make us feel as you are now, the old depression hits bigtime.

Hopefully Jen with all the love and support from hubby Charlie and the kitties and your close friends here on PT, we can help pull you through this black moment in your life.

Just take one day at a time Jen, and although I know your heart is heavy right now, with loosing someone you considered a very special person and who you loved, time is a great healer.

One never knows why these things befall us in life, and right now I am sure you are bewildered, but maybe in time things will seem clearer, they always say there is a reason for everything, but truthfully I cannot always see it myself and wonder why you, a very caring and loving person, should have to endure such emotional pain.

HUGS Jen and always here for you ok.