I'm late getting to this thread, sorry.

{{{Hugs}}} from Amber
{{{Purrs}}} from Cassy
{{{Headbumpies}}} from Livvy*

* And the Livstress headbumpies HARD

Jen, you are a delight and a wonder. I have some friends that retreat and/or lash out when they are in pain and I'm finally coming to grips with the fact that this is THEM not ME. It really sounds like your friend is like this, too. Like many of the others have said, this will be easier for you when your chemicals are regulated. Hang in there. You are loved. Even if you don't count Charlie and a bazillion fur-kids and fosters how the heck can you ignore the manifold demonstration of us "Crazy Cat Wimun"? I also second the recommendation for a walk followed by a hot bath. Both help me lots when I'm in the mental state you are describing. Hang in there, dear.

"How could anyone fail to notice that your loving is a miracle? How deeply you're connected to our souls..."