I am so sorry to hear that. I've got one that you would love to have. Feel free to borrow her any time. Pm her if you need to talk. She's dukedogsgrandma. If you are going to pm her, let me know so I can tell her. She doesn't come here a lot because she's a little busy. But, she can always find time for someone that needs help. Now, your mother sounds like she's in kind of a depression. Has she sought any help for it? She needs to find someone she can talk to and how to address it. Maybe your dad can help her find someone? I hope it gets better for you soon.