Carole,

Been there MANY times!! I'm so sorry you're feeling this way.

Whenever I get to feeling like that (I call it MY "personal pity party") (keep in mind I am by NO MEANS insinutating YOU are having a pity party) , I go to church down the street and pray, balling my eyes out. I feel cleansed after that, even though the puffy red eyes are dead give away that I've been crying. Before I was diagnosed with Chronic Clinical Depression, I'd sleep, stay in my jammies and not leave the house for days. It was all part of the disease. I'm now on Paxil and feeling okay, although I'd rather be in CT.

Betrayal is like having your heart ripped out and stepped on. When I found out I was betrayed by my SIL, I was also devastated, because I would tell her things I wouldn't tell anyone. THAT'S when I decided it was time to go back to CT where my REAL family and friends are (as well as here on PT). I'm still working on it, might take me some time, but I have that goal in my head and it keeps me from having another pity party.

Another thing I do is say the Serenity Prayer:

God,

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference

((((((((hugs)))))))))) to you my dear Carole. We ARE all here for you and want you to know that.