I don't want to sound conceited or anything, but most of my friends have stayed back in a land that I do not want to visit. Most of my friends do stuff that I don't want to do (illegal stuff, I'm saying), so why should I get close to them? Sure, they're still my friends, but I guess I'm just a few levels "up" from them. Everybody who meets me and knows me always say I'm not like people my age. It's so hard to tell online (anyone can be who they want to be on here), so really it's only in person that you can tell. My dad always introduces me as "This is my daughter, Sara. She's 16 going on 39." That pretty much sums it up, in my eyes. My mom tells me that she wishes she had my knowledge (not necessarily book smart) about life 10 years ago.

With that said, it's hard to get close to anyone. I have 2 people in person that I'd say are my best friends. Both are girls, yes. One's a Christian, and one's not. That's another thing. I've always wanted a Christian friend that I could go to, and get moral advice about, and I finally found her. She's at my level of maturity, and knows just what I know. My best friend who is not a Christian is just as mature, and everything, but it's just not the same. That does not mean I don't love her just as much, it's just not the same.

I have another best friend, and he's 28. I'm 16, and he's 28, and he always forgets about my age. By the way I talk to him (online, not in person, because he lives in Philadelphia) he just can't remember "she's only 16". I've learned to lean on him in ways that I can't lean on anyone else, and I know he's not going anywhere.

So, after all this babbling, I have trouble making "close" friends. I'm a very outgoing person and not shy at all, but that doesn't make me reserved. I know who's good for me, and who's not good for me. That's not supposed to be mean, but a lot of people that I know and are friends with are just meant for me. Life will go on, and we'll never talk to eachother again. Since I'm not close to them, I'm not going to be heartbroken. I guess that's a good thing. I don't get heartbroken too much because I'm only close with 3 friends (other than my parents, and family) and no one else. *sigh*