Donna I know exactly how you feel, that is how I felt about this adorable kitten, I once posted about on PT, even though I only have two cats, that is all I can afford, and I felt the same as you, I came home and cryed my eyes out, that kitty did go to a home though, and I am sure your'e lovely black kitty will as well, try to comfort yourself with that thought, I know its pure torture sometimes, and our hearts just ache, as one PT member said to me, if she was meant to be yours she will be. cheers and spirits up Donna.