NEVER and I mean NEVER feel you are just feeling sorry for yourself, it does not matter that other's may have it worse, there is always someone worse off than yourself, your pain is real, and you are hurting right now both physical and emotional, and that is what your friends on PT are for to listen, offer advice, comfort, give you a laugh sometimes, even a chewing out, we all have diversity in our lives one way or another be it, physical, mental, or whatever.

You are having a real tough time right now, and a lot of us can empathise having shared your distress, be it as bad or not, we all offer you only what we can from the heart.

TAKE CARE of yourself, would having a spa help at all? just a thought, anyone close by with one or a facility nearby., just relaxing in the warm water or even the jets might help ease some of your pain.