I'm FAT .... are you?

[carole]

I am one of those people who has different sizes in my wardrobe, until I had children (my excuse) I was reasonably petite, I am not tall, and not big-boned, but like a lot of you have gradually gained weight over the years, I have been thin, middle of the range and what I consider large for me, I am in the middle right now, but by doctors standards I am overweight, I hide it well, and am always being told you are not fat, hmm, well they don't see underneath what I see.

As you age it gets harder and harder to loose the weight, and the body fat becomes more, unless you are an active exerciser, which is hard for me because of my muscle aches and pains, a catch 22, but i do walk when I can.

My weight has yoe-yoed up and down since the birth of my first child, and I am very unhappy with my weight, I long to be slim , I love fashion, and long to wear some of the beautiful clothes that are out there, for now I Settle for 2nd best I think, for me not being thin is a major issue in my life, and unlike some I cannot accept myself not being small as I used to be, and I WON'T either, I am always continually dieting, weightwatchers, I do it the healthy way, and am presently doing just that again, having had a bit of a gain over these winter months, my usual pattern, put on over winter, start loosing for summer, reach so far and never get any further.

I am a different person when I am at goal, I have much more confidence, more outgoing, and just plain happier within myself, and I keep telling myself well if that is what is so important to you, why can you not get it off and keep it off, for me that is the hardest part actually staying at goal.

I weighed in at 55 kilos on my wedding day 13 yrs ago, and I had lost over 21 kilos, I don't have unrealistic expectations to reach that again, I would look haggard at that weight now I am older, but my pre-pregnancy weight before daughter was born is perfect and that is my goal again.

Kim I am glad you brought this subject up as it is a very big part of my life, I know loosing weight does not suddenly make everything perfect, but to me it sure goes a long way to achieving it. Just my thoughts.

PS I should mention it is not only a looks issue for me, I want to avoid all the problems associated with being overweight, I am putting myself at risk for the high blood pressure, diabetes, breast cancer that all runs in my family,so staying at goal is vital to my well-being, as well as my self esteem.

The comment you made Cookiebaker, about not wanting dirty old men looking at you, made me want to fess up to something , when I was young and slim, I hated the attention I received from guys woof whistling etc etc, I was painfully shy, and some part of me says well whilst I am overweight , no chance of that happening, and it makes me feel safe, of course now I am older not much chance of that happening again anyhow lol(now i wish for the attention lol),but it was something I had difficulty with, although I always tryed to look attractive, I still hated the attention . I know strange. Keep in mind i used to work in a Naval base, lots of sailors and an engineering firm, lots of young engineers who knew I was painfully shy and loved to tease the hell out of me and see my face go beet red.