Hi Kim,

When I was in high school oh so many years ago I was thin. At 5'2" I weighed 110 soaking wet. I ran 6 miles on the beach every other day and the days I didn't run I played 2 hours of racquetball. I also rode my 10 speed 5 miles a day to take care of my horse and raced motorcycles in the desert. I was so fit. But I have ALWAYS been a sugar addict. I could sit down with a can of vanilla frosting and a spoon and be in seventh heaven. My BF at the time used to call me blumpy. I am not sure why. My stomach was so flat that when I layed down on the floor on my tummy I would get bruises on my hips. I felt fat all the time.

I moved out of my parents house and for several years my weight didn't get too bad. A few pounds gained but I kept them off by dancing in the clubs in El Paso almost every night while training horses during the day. But in 1984 I decided to go to college. The weight started piling on. Too many bad relationships with men and depression. My step-father trying to get me to have sex with him while he was still married to my mother and having to keep that a secret for over a year. He finally found another sucker to sleep with him and left my mom. I started to work through my anger and when not expecting to ever meet someone I met my hubby online in a chat room.

When I met my husband I weighed in at 285.

He didn't care. He loved me for who I was inside. I now weigh in at 245. I too was diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes about a year and a half ago. I struggle with it every day. I am still a sugar addict. I am on 1000 mg of glucophage twice a day and still my sugars are around 150 to 200 every day. My doctor is going to want to change meds and I really don't want to. I feel fine I just can't seem to get either my weight or my blood sugar levels down where he wants them.

But my husband makes me feel more beautiful and thinner and sexier at this weight than any of the other twits I dated when I was thin ever did. After three years of marriage he still wants me all the time. He is still my best friend and we would still rather do things together than apart. I still get butterflies in my tummy and happy anxious feelings when we are apart and work thinking about how much fun we are going to have when we get home. Playing X-box...watching TV...reading together or playing with the cats.

I also have closer and better female friends at this weight than I ever did thin.

Denyce