I'm FAT .... are you?

[Kfamr]

Yes, I am.

I've been made fun of because of my weight since before I can remember, even by a few PT'ers. But you know what? I could careless about people's rude comments... it just shows how shallow and low they are.

I have many friends, which all of them I love to pieces. Some are large, some are small, some are in between. Each and everyone of them respect me for me, no matter my weight, and I'm the same towards them. To me, being able to accept someone no matter what size they are, shows a real truely wonderful person.

But, it'd be nice if every person could be more like our animals, and accept us like they do.

[kimlovescats]

Well said, Kay .... I was just curious if it was really "ok" for me to be comfortable where I am ... you know? Gosh, I guess I need some sort of justification whether I'm thin or fat .... pretty sad huh?

[catnapper]

Ah, the weight subject. I have been the same size now to for three years. Of course this is the highest I've ever weighed I was always a yo-yo dieter. Now that I'm home all the time, I've been gaining a few pounds, and thats not making me happy, but all in all I'm happier now than ever, regardless my weight.

I pulled out the treadmill and cleaned it off today so I have all intentions in the world of using it starting..... Monday!! LOL

When I was thin - I ate very little and was always lightheaded. Always. And I got migraines very easily. It turned out that everything I was eating to keep my weight down were migraine triggers - yogurt, pickles, raisins, various nuts and cheeses. I ate a high protein diet and was doing very well on it maintaining a low weight. However I was always in agony with migraines. When I cut out the triggers, I started piling on pounds FAST. At least 20 pounds in 3 months Then another 30 within another 6 months. I am heavy, but now I don't have food triggered migraines and am never lightheaded. I soooo rather being heavy that feeling like I'm going to pass out at any minute, or feeling like my head was being bashed in with a hammer.

Also, when I was thin, I dated this man. He was so frantic about food. He used to be very fat and because annoying like Richard Simmons about weight and calories and fat counts, and UGH! He refused to chew gum, and wouldn't ever consider cake or cookies! He watched everything I ate and commented on it. I was the thinnest I ever was with him... but then I'd leave his house after a date. Then I'd stop at Dunkin Donuts, buy SIX donuts and eat them while I cried my whole way home! I dont; have to do that anymore either. I have no interest in donuts - let alone SIX!!!

Whew... I talked a lot. Would you ever know this is a big subject for me?

[Blustang24]

Well, to me, I'm fat. I've never been"thin" nor will I ever be. I am big boned...large rib cage, broad shoulders..almost 5'10". When I graduated high school in 2001 I was a size 8. Now 3 years later I am 35 lbs-40lbs heavier. I go through spurts of losing 15 lbs but then gain probably 12 of it back. I know I am only going to go down though. I haven't gone past a certain weight the whole time. I am determined to atleast get to a size 10. I think I will be there by the end of this year. I am losing bit by bit since I am constantly active this summer with running a camp. Once that it done, I will be going to my gym a lot more often. I know how to eat properly and what kind of exercise to do, I just have to commit myself and curve my cravings and late night meals.

Nice thread...I think quite a few of us can relate and it's a nice way to release some feelings each of us may have.

[lizbud]

I've never really thought much about weight until the last few
years. My waistline is expanding in my "senior" years.

Oh, well. I am who I am. As long as you are healthy & happy
within yourself it shouldn't matter.

[Denyce]

Hi Kim,

When I was in high school oh so many years ago I was thin. At 5'2" I weighed 110 soaking wet. I ran 6 miles on the beach every other day and the days I didn't run I played 2 hours of racquetball. I also rode my 10 speed 5 miles a day to take care of my horse and raced motorcycles in the desert. I was so fit. But I have ALWAYS been a sugar addict. I could sit down with a can of vanilla frosting and a spoon and be in seventh heaven. My BF at the time used to call me blumpy. I am not sure why. My stomach was so flat that when I layed down on the floor on my tummy I would get bruises on my hips. I felt fat all the time.

I moved out of my parents house and for several years my weight didn't get too bad. A few pounds gained but I kept them off by dancing in the clubs in El Paso almost every night while training horses during the day. But in 1984 I decided to go to college. The weight started piling on. Too many bad relationships with men and depression. My step-father trying to get me to have sex with him while he was still married to my mother and having to keep that a secret for over a year. He finally found another sucker to sleep with him and left my mom. I started to work through my anger and when not expecting to ever meet someone I met my hubby online in a chat room.

When I met my husband I weighed in at 285.

He didn't care. He loved me for who I was inside. I now weigh in at 245. I too was diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes about a year and a half ago. I struggle with it every day. I am still a sugar addict. I am on 1000 mg of glucophage twice a day and still my sugars are around 150 to 200 every day. My doctor is going to want to change meds and I really don't want to. I feel fine I just can't seem to get either my weight or my blood sugar levels down where he wants them.

But my husband makes me feel more beautiful and thinner and sexier at this weight than any of the other twits I dated when I was thin ever did. After three years of marriage he still wants me all the time. He is still my best friend and we would still rather do things together than apart. I still get butterflies in my tummy and happy anxious feelings when we are apart and work thinking about how much fun we are going to have when we get home. Playing X-box...watching TV...reading together or playing with the cats.

I also have closer and better female friends at this weight than I ever did thin.

Denyce

[petlover]

I am very happy with myself being thin.. I wouldn't be able to stand being fat, not with all that I do.. Or just period.

[Denyce]

Kfamr,

I am very sorry someone has every made fun of you because of your weight. It is a horribly cruel thing for anyone to ever do. I once had a jerk at a bar try and shove me off a bar stool as if I didn't exist. He called me a fat pig and basically said I had no business being there as no one would ever want to be around me anyway and I was taking up valuable space.

I stood my ground and said to him in the most condescending voice I could drum up...."Well I may be fat but I can always lost my weight...you are stuck with who you are for life you spineless excuse for a man. And just so you know this "fat chick" wouldn't lower herself to sleep with you ever! You are not even worth the amount of time and energy I have already spent upon your sorry self". I got cheers from the other people around us. He left with a very red face.

And to all you young and thin teenagers out there who think you are NEVER going to be fat....well....life has a way of catching up to you. Babies, changes in metabolism, depression, abusive relationships and illness are all things that can and do happen to women every day that change their bodies in ways the arrogance of youth NEVER thought would happen.

Denyce

[dukedogsmom]

I have always been heavy and caught the same crap in school. I was doing really well in my early 20's until my man troubles started. From then on, it's been pretty much downhill. And a lot of it is the movies/magazines, etc fault. The women that are stars to me are way too skinny and I wouldn't want to be like that. However, it would be nice to be quite a bit smaller. And, at least when you are big, and people like you, you know they like you for who you are instead of the way you look. Most men never change, I've discovered. A sad but true fact. And Denyce, good for you for telling off that man! I would have loved to have been there.

[Karen]

I am overweight. I like myself, and am not as concerned as I should be about being overweight. I do want to exercise, theoretically, but other things just seem more important until another day has gone by without exercising.

My weight, whatever it has been, has never really affected my self-esteem. Maybe it should - I'd exercise more?

Losing weight is the right thing for me for so many reasons - long-term health, avoiding knee and joint problems, extra wear and tear on various systems ... I have seen older people who were overweight at my age, and it ain't pretty. I just need to do it.

[carole]

I am one of those people who has different sizes in my wardrobe, until I had children (my excuse) I was reasonably petite, I am not tall, and not big-boned, but like a lot of you have gradually gained weight over the years, I have been thin, middle of the range and what I consider large for me, I am in the middle right now, but by doctors standards I am overweight, I hide it well, and am always being told you are not fat, hmm, well they don't see underneath what I see.

As you age it gets harder and harder to loose the weight, and the body fat becomes more, unless you are an active exerciser, which is hard for me because of my muscle aches and pains, a catch 22, but i do walk when I can.

My weight has yoe-yoed up and down since the birth of my first child, and I am very unhappy with my weight, I long to be slim , I love fashion, and long to wear some of the beautiful clothes that are out there, for now I Settle for 2nd best I think, for me not being thin is a major issue in my life, and unlike some I cannot accept myself not being small as I used to be, and I WON'T either, I am always continually dieting, weightwatchers, I do it the healthy way, and am presently doing just that again, having had a bit of a gain over these winter months, my usual pattern, put on over winter, start loosing for summer, reach so far and never get any further.

I am a different person when I am at goal, I have much more confidence, more outgoing, and just plain happier within myself, and I keep telling myself well if that is what is so important to you, why can you not get it off and keep it off, for me that is the hardest part actually staying at goal.

I weighed in at 55 kilos on my wedding day 13 yrs ago, and I had lost over 21 kilos, I don't have unrealistic expectations to reach that again, I would look haggard at that weight now I am older, but my pre-pregnancy weight before daughter was born is perfect and that is my goal again.

Kim I am glad you brought this subject up as it is a very big part of my life, I know loosing weight does not suddenly make everything perfect, but to me it sure goes a long way to achieving it. Just my thoughts.

PS I should mention it is not only a looks issue for me, I want to avoid all the problems associated with being overweight, I am putting myself at risk for the high blood pressure, diabetes, breast cancer that all runs in my family,so staying at goal is vital to my well-being, as well as my self esteem.

The comment you made Cookiebaker, about not wanting dirty old men looking at you, made me want to fess up to something , when I was young and slim, I hated the attention I received from guys woof whistling etc etc, I was painfully shy, and some part of me says well whilst I am overweight , no chance of that happening, and it makes me feel safe, of course now I am older not much chance of that happening again anyhow lol(now i wish for the attention lol),but it was something I had difficulty with, although I always tryed to look attractive, I still hated the attention . I know strange. Keep in mind i used to work in a Naval base, lots of sailors and an engineering firm, lots of young engineers who knew I was painfully shy and loved to tease the hell out of me and see my face go beet red.

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Yeah, I am.

But I don't care too much. Never been good in gym class, never will be. I am what I am, it doesn't matter if I can run the mile in 6 minutes or 12.

I am tall (5'9") so I can hid most of it easily. I am less wide than people that weigh as much as I do that are 6" shorter than me.

PILATES! I did Pilates for a week then stopped... But it really worked wonders... 9 pounds lost in that one week... but when I stopped, it came back, so I need to start again.


I look a little chunky in this one...

This is me 2 or 3 years ago...

[catnapper]

Originally posted by petlover
I am very happy with myself being thin.. I wouldn't be able to stand being fat, not with all that I do.. Or just period.

Hmmm... I seem to remember my daughter saying those same exact words just two years ago when she was 14 too. An amazing thing happens when those hormones start revving up! Ash swims at least a mile a day and eats properly, but she's still 5'1" tall and weighing in at well... the shorts she bought the other day are size 9/11. She's got rather ample bottom and thighs.

My other daughter is 14 now and she swims, runs and plays soccer for three different teams (soon to be 4) Needless to say, the girl is active. Yet, she knows that within the next few years her sister's bottom will have been cloned on her. Its simple genetics. She sees it starting already.

As Denyce said, don't think you're above gaining weight. My girls' birth mother was always pettie and perfectly flat tummy (with ample bottom) and is now sporting clothing from the "Women's Section" of the mall. I don't want to make you think its hopeless. Just understand that you aren't the number on the scale or the size on the label. and if you think you are, then your self esteem is tied up in the wrong part of you. Focus on your intelligence, humor, creativity, intensity, but not on your waist size.

[kimlovescats]

All of your posts have really gotten me thinking even more! I appreciate your openness and willingness to share your feelings on this delicate subject! I think for me, being overweight gives me a sense of freedom from worry. As a thin young woman, I always felt pressured to dress a certain way, and everything had to fit every curve just right ... and I was NEVER totally satisfied! Now that I am overweight, it just doesn't matter to me anymore, I can buy something simply because I like the fabric or the color or print and it is comfortable to wear .... and don't have to worry about it being form-fitting to perfection!!! Now, I would like to believe, that when people look at me, they can truly like ME for whom I am ... and if they compliment my outfit, then they truly like my outfit, and my taste in color ... and not just whether it is the latest trend, or if it fits my body accordingly! I am much happier and accepting of myself as well. I see my spirit, my heart, my willingness to help others, and my compassion for those who are hurting .... I don't see me on the surface anymore, I see me INSIDE. Am I just finally growning up? Maybe! But I also truly believe that by giving up my superficial perceptions of myself, I have found my TRUE self!
Thanks for listening!

[tikeyas_mom]

I am not in shape, but I am not fat... nor am I skinny like a tooth pick...
I dont eat when i am bored... and I jogg everyday.
umm, I have felt insecure of course like most ladies my age..
but umm.. yeah this post is weird...
I dont know what to write... I didnt choose an option.