Hello, thanks for the encouragement and letting me know it is okay to feel the way I have been feeling. I will go and look up the famous people you spoke of, that is very interesting. I guess I have a pretty shy nature, but I am also in- tuned to when I am isolating. When friends call and I screen their calls. I will keep my phone on only because my children may need me and I want them to bee able to reach me, or my parents or other relatives may need me in case of a serious illness or something. But, then I tend to ignore calls from dear friends, that coould very well get sick too. When I answer calls from relatives that I worry may have an emergency and find they have just called to check on me or just want to chat, I make up excuses. I lock the doors, avoid phone calls that I know deep inside I should take. I close my blinds and curtins and don't go anywhere for days or even a week and only go out when I absolutely have to. I feel I am being very selfish, which that part is not me. I have always placed friends and family before myself. But anyway, I am okay at the moment and thought of you guys at PT while I was away the last few days and thought, "Wouldn't they be proud of me now?" I was out and being my normal old self, laughing and smiling and talking so much that I am sure they were wondering when I was going to hush. lol It was all really therapuetic for me. Thanks a bunch to you all!