Hello again to Leslie and Cubby and also to others who have responded so kindly to my thread. I am back, I have been out of town for a mini-vacation at my sister-in-law's house in Clarksville, TN. She just got her new swimming pool in and I went swimming for the first time in about two years! My husband and I played like children and we really had a blast. Of course we had a kind friend to come in and feed water and chat with the critters each day. It was so good to get away and enjoy ourselves with out the worries and usual woes. We played cards until about one in the morning. We watched several movies that are fairly new and even had a strawberry daiquiri one night while we were away. My son, Blake, age 14 had fun with our 16 year old nephew, John. They had lots of fun too. Leslie, you were right about the Zoloft not being right to treat bipolar disorder, I know that anti-depressants tend to cause the manic part of this illness more profound. I just have had experiences with psychiatrists when they put me on bad drugs and I became very suicidal, I am terriified of the meds that may help me attain a balance, so I try to make the best of the Zoloft and my family doctor. Cubby, thank you for sharing your story, I surely felt your fustrations, the overwhelmed feeling that I know you felt with so much responsibility at such a young and tender age, and the lonliness that you felt though you were surrounded by people whom you loved and who were dependent on you for their very life. I am glad you talked about it and got it off your chest-I had my own struggles at that age also, but I never had all of those heavy responsibilities you did when you were so young. I had to cry when I read your story. You are a very strong woman, and you should be proeud of all you were to your family. I am in deep hopes that you have found some comfort and happiness, and that you are now being taken care of to some extent. May God Bless you, and also the rest of you, my friends at PT.