I am on neither side..

I know i am not ready to have children.. and i would not be mad if it happened.

Me and Eric are not trying .. AND NOT PLANNING ON TRYING.. but we would consider it a blessing if i did get pregnant.

Either way a few years back when my sister and friends were getting pregnant and having babies.. my maternal instincts were in HIGH gear and i really really really really wanted to have a baby..

BUT now i am glad we haven't had any and I realize I am not ready... it wouldn't surprise me if we never had children.. but whatever the Lord's will is, that is what I want.!!