I'm actually surprised Kim at how much satisfaction I am getting from the volunteer work. What keeps me from bringing them home is several different things.
1) I know I can't take them all and how can I choose one over another? They all need someone to love them.
2) Does the few minutes I spend with them make a difference? I believe the answer is yes. After I take time with one and love it and talk to it, I notice when I put them back in the cage they instantly curl up and seem to sleep contentedly. I hope I gave them some peace.
3) The turn over is high so I don't get a chance to really get attached to one more than another. Not yet anyway!!
4) The troubled ones that need the most help could not come home with me because I could never get them to mix with my babies. I will not disturb/destroy the lives of my kitties because they don't deserve that.
5) I will end up divorced?
6) I can't afford the adoption fees for all of them!!!!

I will be honest with you. I told myself when I started doing this that I would probably end up adopting one or two someday. Some nights I walk around and think which ones would I like to take home if I could have two. There is no answer to that question because each one is special in their own way. I keep telling myself that as soon as I took one home there would be another come along that needed me more.
I joke about the divorce thing but Hubby and I did have a ...um...discussion about that just a few days ago. I was cleaning litter boxes in the utility room with some help from a few kitties. I am always talking to my cats. I never shut up when one is around. Well, during one of these kitty talks I made the comment "Would you like me to bring you home a buddy from the shelter?". Suddenly it was like this big booming voice from the heavens saying "NO! YOU CAN NOT BRING ANYTHING HOME!! I kind of chuckled to myself but didn't let him see that. Then I asked him what he intended to do about it if I did. (this was all said in a very sweet voice). He looked a little lost and had no answer. I sweetly said...You can't stop me and if I do bring one home what will you do? He let out this big sigh and said "well I guess I would take it in and love it just like all the rest!" So that means that I will eventually bring a few home!!
Anyway! I'm trying to do something to help but I know the number of homeless will be endless and unless I hit the lottery and can start my own Best Friends then I can't do much more.
You have already gone above and beyond what most people do. Be proud and if you still feel the need I think you could handle volunteering. As long as it is NO KILL! otherwise you would bring everything home!
I think you just need to give yourself a break and love the babies you have at home. Give yourself a big pat on the back for all the great work you have done and resign yourself to the fact that you are finished. Go hug and kiss all you adorable babies and find peace in their precious faces knowing that thanks to you they all will have a wonderful life!!

ps. I don't think we will ever see you in the papers!! That lady had 96 cats! I personally think they should give them back because I think she was doing a great job!!!

Sorry this was so long! This is how I ramble to my kitties at home!!