OH I am so sorry that you feel this bad! I honestly think its Lily being a kitten. Pouncer does the same exact thing every night... sometimes I think a demon has possessed him! He would dearly love to go outside and tries to slip past me whenever the doors are open. We've gotten really good at stopping him...though right now its so cold that he has no interest in going outside whatsoever.

Do you happen to have a balcony that you can Lily-proof so that she can get some freedom and feel like she's outside when she's really just in an extention of the apartment? We have a balcony on the second floor and its Allen's most favorite place in the world. He too was an outdoor cat the first few weeks, and yes, it was just AWFUL getting him used to the idea that he was an indoor cat. After 2 years, he finally mellowed a bit and now that he's an old man of three, he's completely mellowed.

This may sound weird, but perhaps you could get a leash or harness for her and take her for walks. We actually had to do this with Allen. People would laugh their heads off when they saw a big fat orangie walking down the street on a leash! He loved it, the adventure, and the fresh air. He doesn't do that any more and if we would try to put the leash on him, he acts like we're taking him to his death! Because of his leash-ability, he's never ever sat in a carrier!

I also agree with what Barbara said. Lily is just fine and knows she has a happy home!