I'm so, so sorry, Heidi. Please know that we are all thinking of you during this difficult time. Your heart must ache so much for Teddy, and you miss him something fierce. The pain of loss can cut so deep, but it also shows the depth of your love for Teddy. He was a blessed cat to have had you in his life, as you were blessed. It is wonderful to know that loved ones live on in our memories and we can enjoy the hope of seeing them again someday. Take care, and write any time you want someone to listen or if you want to talk about Teddy.