Thanks everyone!
I know you would listen to me, but it is such a long and very personal story and it goes so far back, to my teenage years... And now I have been confronted with that, for the second time already during the last couple of weeks - as if there wasn't enough to deal with already.
However, I just don't want the things I like (like PT) to be soiled with that, so I better do not come here.
Kirsten
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