luckies4me, I can only re-assure you from my own personal experience, the 2nd one was a breeze in comparison, but everyone is different, my first experience was very traumatic, both for me and my baby, and like you, I put alot of it down to bad doctoring and nursing, but hey I survived it, had a beautiful son, and went on to have my beautiful daughter ten years down the track.

Luckily the mind has the greatest way of forgetting pain, thank goodness eh.