Hang in there, Anathiona, and know that we are here with you in spirit. I have "been there" and "done that", without the other issues you deal with. It is not easy, but I detect that you are a survivor. Floyd will be fine and although I know you will miss him, there is another bird in your future. Our Cockatiels are a joy....I'll talk "tiel talk" with you anytime you want!!!!