Thanks so much for the kind and loving words. I will now explain the course of events. Autumn seemed to be fine one day, and was dying the next. The only "sign" I had that anything might have been wrong, is that she was sleeping more .... but she still was eating and drinking and would follow me through the house. However, I told my husband to keep an eye on her .... as I am now working full-time on second shift. When I got home that night (last night) my hubby was sleeping on the couch with Autumn wrapped in a towel. I knew right then it was bad, because he usually is in bed before I get home at midnight. Anyway, she was dying right then .... only taking breaths every minute or two ...... and getting cold. (This is hard to write )
Anway, she was gone within a few hours. Of course, I tried in vain to force fluids, broth, nutri-cal ... anything I could think of on her, but it was clearly too late.

I know many of you are thinking .... "why didn't you go to an emergency vet"..... well, to be quite honest, we do not have the money right now, or the available credit ....... and our emergency vet charges $75.00 up front just for entering the clinic. Yes, I have "beat myself up" over this, but I really do know in my heart, that there wouldn't have been anything a vet could have done for her at that point.

I operate on "donation only" ...... and place so few of the cats / kittens I take in, that I am always running "in the red"..... this is why my credit cards are all maxed out and now even overdue!
I am not looking for pity, I would do it again in a heartbeat .... if my credit companies would raise my limit but I know that I have to quit taking in more than I can financially support. The thing that really messed me up right now is that my husband's payroll was changed from weekly to monthly.... so we won't get a paycheck until the 30th of this month. Also, my new job won't pay until then as well. If this had all happened in about 2 weeks, things would have been handled much differently .... but I still have to believe that all the money in the world wouldn't have made a difference in Autumn's outcome. I just have to believe this, or else I could never forgive myself.