The funeral is Wednesday morning.
I have no motiviation to begin my termpaper that's due tomorrow.

Your prayers and support mean the world to me.. I can't fathom what the parents are going through as, I myself just want to crawl in that casket and go with them.

It wasn't suppose to happen like this. I feel so guilty...feel like it should've been me, not them. They were trying to have a baby. She wanted a little girl--all pink and frilly--and to one-up her sister in parenting.

What do I have to contribute to this world that they didn't? I just don't understand at all. I just don't understand. This just doesn't happen to best friends... it can't happen.

I'm so sorry for venting... I just... I'm sorry.



Laurie did you get my PM?