I am very sorry for the tragic loss of your Aunt Linda, you are at a very young age to have to experience such sadness.

I can well understand how you feel about people smiling and laughing, I have only been to about 4 funerals in my life, and I felt and still do the same as you, it kinda bothers me somewhat.

I guess it is just what happens at funerals, and no disrespect was mean't to your aunt.
Think of it this way sweetie, as a celebration of her life, and then it might not be so hard to bear.

I think also you should let Tikeyas_mom see this, as she thinks it is fine to tan in sunbeds etc, as you mentioned the skin cancer that took your beloved Auntie from you.

This is an unbearable situation for you to bear, and my heart goes out to you, I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better.

GIANT HUGS TO YOU AND MY SINCERE CONDOLENCES TO YOUR FAMILY.