Thank you everyone for the kind words. I had a good cry today. He will never be forgotten. I know I'll see him again one day, along with all my rb angels. It's just that this feeling is way too familiar and I wish I don't have to say goodbye to anymore kitties in a long time. You see, we moved here from another country a couple of years ago. We used to take care of about 20 stray cats in our home. When we have to move , we made sure to tell our relatives to take in at least some of them. As it turned out they never took them in. A former neighbor told us that these poor cats where placed in a sack and thrown some other place by the owner of the apartment we used to live in. A part of me died that time. That must have been the most traumatic thing that happened to me. I lost a lot of faith on people. I realized that even the ones you love could let you down. Our whole family had dreams about them for a long time. All three sisters and my mom couldnt stop crying for months. So now, I make it my mission to make a difference to some lives I encounter. I could not help all of them but I will try to save as many as I can. Thank you everyone for your support. My only hope is that wherever my babies are, they are not suffering anymore. I will see them soon.