Dear SAS,
I've always thought that a good book makes nice company to a glass of wine...and I've never known a mood that a good book couldn't cure at least a little bit.
I've loved to read "My angels wear fur" by Devon O'Day and it helped me a lot...you won't find any advice on your situation there, but you'll learn that letting go doesn't mean losing or stop loving...it just means learning...in this book you'll find wonderful short stories that soothe the heart...maybe you should give it a try...

You've been through such a lot of weird experiences and emotions lately and I'm glad that you all have found a way out of it now. We can learn quite a lot from our cats, hm?!

I wish you all the best on your further way...a quick recovery for sweet Miley girl and a wonderful kittenhood for her little sister Juni Rose...and a puuuurrrfect home for Ti...with all your efforts he'll make it to a new home soon...there's the right place for everyone, believe me...

Hugs to your weary heart