::Hugs::

I feel so bad. Mostly because I can relate so well to your pain. I have been dreading the month of May for almost 2 months now. Chewy's first birthday is May 6th and that is going to be a horrible day for me. My best suggestion would be to cry, cry for all your worth. Thats what I do. I know what you mean about crying every night, it weares you down after a long time, but you need it to stay imotionally sane, I know without it I would be going crazy with all these emotions inside and nothing ot release them with. I know one thing that has helped me is think of the happy times, I always think of playing in the back yard or him sleeping on my bed ::wipes tears:: I miss him greatly. And hope the 6th goes fast. I know I will cry all day, probly while at school to. I know that I will probly cry for hours that night before I cry myself to sleep only to wake up the next morning for another day of torture. I hope you handled today well, I know how tuff it is.

If you ever need someone to talk to, you can PM me.

Ash