I'm so sorry. I have those days. Some days are good and some days you just miss them so much. I always knew when he joined the Marine Corps that there was the possibility of him being gone for months on end. I thought I would be ok, and I am for now. But, I guess you can never fully be prepared for the reality of it. It hit me a lot harder than I thought. But, the good is that it really made me look at my priorities and realize that yes I do really truly love him and want to marry him....we always talked about marraige before but this made it real for me.

Joey left yesterday for Iraq. In a way, I'm almost ok, now that he's actually gone. It was driving me crazy..him in CA, me in LA and not knowing if this week would be the week he would go. For me, the sooner he left, the sooner he'll come home. Does Brian know how long he'll be over there? Joey doesn't know if it'll be 6 months, a year or less. I'm sure Brian was thinking of you on your anninversary as much as you were thinking of him. Just think of what a great celebration you'll be able to have for your anniversay when he does come home...so it'll be a little delayed.

Now that Joey has finally gone over there, I just keep thinking about the day he'll come home. I spoke to him right before I boarded the plane in San Diego(this was as I was coming home from my last visit with him) Whenever I would visit my Dad in San Diego, I was never to sad to leave because I always knew I was going home to Joey and he would be there at the airport to pick me up in New Orleans. I was a little teary eyed talking to Joey before I left the airport, I told him it seemed so wrong me leaving San Diego and knowing that he wouldn't be there to pick me up when I got home.

Anywhooo...I'm rambling. ((((HUGS)))) Take Care.