You all were experienced and right... I picked up the boy's remains tonight. My first thought was the heaviness of the cedar box so I knew it was my BIG GALOOT! First time since he was a wee pup that I was able to carry him....Attached was a beautiful certificate of authenticity, a Rainbow Bridge poem which made me cry...But you know what? I actually felt closure! Of course I had to open and look, but it didn't freak me out at all. Now I know he'll ALWAYS be with me. Cody's place of honor is the book shelf in the family room next to the lounge chair where dad and I always sat. I can put my hand on it. How can I ever ever thank you all? I think this will be my final thread on the subject. I finally feel a sense of peace, not totally, but much better. I needed Cody with me, regardless of how. I love you guys....