Sorry to have frightened anyone with my absence...The beginning of my first unemployed week had me thinking I was on vacation. The last few days of dreary, cold rain didn't help, so when Sandra called me this morning to check this thread, I pinched myself, got dressed, met a friend for lunch (the other girl who got laid off) came home, slapped myself to snap myself out of this depression, and then of course, just GASPED-awestruck!! at Amy's sketch of my big ole galoot!!! OMG! I just PM'd her. I even called my mom over who was just as speechless as I was! It is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. Better than a photo! AND her TALENT!!!! And the time and effort it took her to do that for me!!! Tears of joy! I still see and hear Cody and expect him at the door. I talk to him all the time.It's exactly one week. Finally had to see a doctor but am going to try to overcome all this by myself with no medication. I'm strong by nature, but this just rocked me to the core. I accepted my dad's death better than this and I feel a little guilty. Sandra and I were talking about pet birthdays, and even though I always celebrated and wished Cody H.B. in my heart and mind, I prayed he's never have another and would be with me for years. I'm not ready yet for another, but soon, very soon. I need stamina and energy and motivation right now. Cody was an accident-right place, right time, so I know that when I see the right one, it'll hit me just like Cody. Instant bonding. Bells and Lights and Stars. Already have names chosen. Dcided to go to the PT renuion of sorts in Doylestown PA..wish you could all be there for hugs and kisses... Sorry to ramble....Love you all TO PIECES!!!!!....k