Weighty topic

[catnapper]

What a crazy few days.... did you all know I work with a bunch of children posing as adults?

I went to hubby's thearpist with him yesterday (we see a joint therapist and he sees one on his own - I swear by therapy for anyone who has tension or stress --- which is EVERYONE ) Anyway, I learned a few things, like he's keeping a food journal (which I knew) but its waaaayyyyy different than I thought it was. He enters every single thing that goes into his mouth. He cooks an egg with a pat of butter? He enters what size egg, and how much butter, and whether it was salted or unsalted butter. Its an amazing site and I joinded it last night. We went the movies with Cam tonight so I forgot about my diet with a Slushie and salted and buttered movie popcorn. I entered it into the website and it showed me how much fat, carbs, etc I ate today.

Anyway, he lost 3 pounds in two weeks. I do think he is trying, but I think its only a half hearted attempt. I think he is counting on the surgery to be his salvation. I just wish we could talk about weight without him reacting emotionally.

[Catty1]

3 lbs is a great start.

Suggestion: The next time you two see the therapist, ask about dealing with the dysfunctional family Grant grew up in. I know when overeating really began in childhood and teen-hood, food was the only thing I could control. But it wound up controlling me.

[Digi]

I know what its like to gain weight and not be able to control it. It bothers me daily and im bitter about it.

Ive had a few people go on about my weight and how i can loose weight. I try not to snap or be rude but it just comes out with anger.

Its not my fault i was in a car accident and it buggered up my back(idiot wasnt paying attention and slammed into my stopped car at hwy speeds). I was very active before the accident and was a healthy chubby person.

Grocery shopping is a chore and i cant walk the dogs further then the back yard.

When i do too much i wont notice it then. Ill notice it when i try to get up from a chair. By try i mean greatly struggle. If i lay down in bed to read and try to get up, nothing happens. Im trapped and become very scared as my mid section is paralyzed.

I hate being a fat blob. I want to go for hikes, camping, swimming, but im scared to do any of them in fear of getting paralyzed with no one near by or in the water.

I make 80% of my meals and i eat about 1500cal/day. 2000 is too much for my size, and i rarely to never ate that much. Always somewhere between 1000-1500. Im naturally high energy. So you can imagen how crazy a puppy gets when they are on restricted movement for a few months. Try doing that to a puppy for years and see how they act.

My partner is very good to me. When i get stuck he always rushes in to help me get up or will lay with me if my back is completely paralyzed to the point i cant support myself. My legs always work, but if my back is totally gone they just cannot support any weight. Very flustering.

We are planning to buy an excercise bike next month in hopes i can use that with little issues, as it wont involve my back much. Also with it being in the house, its less scary to get stuck somewhere.

I need to loose weight as mh blood pressure is getting too high. It doesnt need medical attention yet, and i want to keep it that way.

In a way i understand your hubbies frustration.