thanks everyone, yes i am very very apprehensive about the visit, i honestly don't think it is just grieving for ellie, although things did happen around that time , it is probably just a coincidence, i hope for once i am WRONG,i took her once before because she was a bit unwell ,and the vet found nothing,gave me peace of mind, but i still just have a gut feeling,it always happens when you least need it, got so much expense this week, have my own health issues to sort out, so off to the doc on friday, stress can do some pretty bad things to people and animals, i know from experience,so hoping that is all it is, still got to deal with that as well don't we? just feeling so nervous about the visit,she certainly does not seem to unwell today, but i just feel something is still not right, she has become quite distant to us,and not her usual loving self, mind you that can be grief too.

For me the most obvious sign things are not right, is her lack of appetite, i have managed to get her through her daily ration, but only because i have taken it to her and coaxed her to eat it, and that is not like her,normally she gobbles her food down no problem and is eager, well that is not happening.

Will let you all know how i get on, and thanks again for your support, means the world to me, i am feeling so stressed myself right now it is comforting to know others understand and care.