Shady and Lori your words are so comforting and i can so well relate, i guess with animals, some people just expect you to be over it in few days time, but luckily i have wonderful friends here and others in my life who really understand how i feel, yep it comes and goes ,some days i just burst in to tears thinking about her, it will take time, and hey i have time now don't I ?again thanks so much for everything you all have said, it really does help me so much.