Ellie-mae will be leaving me today....

[carole]

It is with so much sadness i tell you i will have to take Ellie to be put to sleep at 4.15pm today, Ellie was doing so great considering, the steroids were helping and she was eating right up until yesterday, yesterday was not good, she ate a small amount of food in the morning , then would not eat the rest of the day, she also just keep vomiting.She cannot even keep water down now.


I made the decision last night if there was no improvement, then i would let her go peacefully, sadly she won't eat at all, is vomiting even water up, continually going in the dirt box, doing a small pee, and trying to poo and nothing happening, she is not at all well.

I Let her out today as usual this morning and she disappeared, i never even gave it a thought ,silly me, but she took off, i found her in the neighbour's driveway, sitting hunched up looking miserable, i think she was going away to die.

I hate having to shut her in on her last day, she loves outside in the courtyard, i took her out to supervise her but she was going to take off again, of course she sure knows something is up.

I have given her a pain relief steroid this morning, even though it is on an empty stomach, i just did not know what else to do, my vet is in surgery all morning, and i so want him to be the one to let her go, he has such a bond with her and done so much for her. I think it will be sad for him too.

Please pray my ellie can be stable until then, and not in too much pain and let her go peacefully.

My heart is breaking right now, and i don't know how i will get through this day, but somehow i will have to, i know i am going to be a mess this afternoon.

I feel sick to the stomach ,knowing what lies ahead.

I also know it will be a blessing to let her go , as she is now starting to suffer, i honestly thought my girl was going to show them all they were wrong, i guess it was the calm before the storm, and at least Ellie had another week with us, and she was not too bad until yesterday.

I am worried about Nikki her daughter, how she will react, they have been together all their lives, although not very close now, i still think she will feel it and grieve for her, i just don't know what to expect.

I have attached a pic of Ellie before her illness and one taken two days ago, you can see how much weight she has lost, poor wee darling.

Well folks that is all i can write for now, my heart is heavy, my eyes filled with tears and i just cannot write about it anymore, thanks for listening and being there for me.

[pomtzu]

Oh no Carole - I'm so sorry. I know what you are going thru, and my heart breaks right along with yours. There's nothing I can say to ease your pain, but please know that you and Ellie-Mae are in my prayers. Please don't tell her good-bye when the time comes - just tell her "farewell and Godspeed". Good-bye is final, and we all know that when our beloved furkids leave us in body, that they are always with us in spirit and in our hearts. You'll meet again one day.

Peace and hugs to you, my friend, and give that sweet girl a little kiss for me please.

[carole]

Thank you, your words mean such a lot.

[lizbud]

I am so very sorry. (((Hugs)))

So many PT pets making their trips to Rainbow Bridge lately.

[carole]

Yes it is a trip i wish she did not have to make, but she has been battling with cancer for some time now, she has been through enough, she is a fighter and she never gave up until now, now it is just time to be at peace.

[finn's mom]

Aw, friend. My heart is hurting for you and your sweet girl. My thoughts are with you. Be at peace with her as much as you can, she is probably just as worried about you as you are about her. xoxo

[Karen]

You will be in our prayers, this is never easy, even when it is the right thing to do. Rest in the comfort of knowing she will then be pain free, and remember only the happy time of being a beloved kitty.

[Freedom]

Carole, my heart goes out to you. This is always such a difficult time. You KNOW how much has been done - by you and the white coats - to help Ellie Mae, to keep her comfortable, to keep her going. Nevertheless when this decision is needed, it is never easy. I truly believe our pets know the things we do to help them, so she knows you have tried. And fighter that she is, she made the most of all of it! I will keep you in my prayers.

[Felicia's Mom]

I am so sorry to hear this. Remember that she will be painfree and waiting for you at Rainbow Bridge.

[Lillycat]

You will be in our prayers, this is never easy, even when it is the right thing to do. Rest in the comfort of knowing she will then be pain free, and remember only the happy time of being a beloved kitty.

.....know you are in our thoughts.....

[carole]

oh yes Ellie is so intuitive, she probably knows what's up because i am blubbering so much, i read the brains of a cat are quite similar with humans ,especially the emotional side of it.

She is just resting, had a drink, no food, and i can see the look in her eyes, that is what really lets me know it is time for her.

I am going to feel so lost without her, you know looking after a sick or terminal cat is very emotionally draining and physically tiring, but i would not trade it for anything, i am just so pleased i could do it for her and my late Ash,they both got two years longer than they would have without the vet care and homecare,that is a long time in a kitties life, and i know rescuing her gave her another 6 to 7 years,so i have to be thankful for that.

Just cannot imagine life without her, just be so empty, despite having my other two kitties, Ellie is extra special, there is just something about her.

Thanks everyone, i am finding this day so hard, watching Ellie,i should try and keep busy, but i just cannot settle to anything, my mind is only on one thing, coming up here on the computer to release my feelings is always a good thing and can only but help me.

I have decided not to be a pet owner anymore once my other two have left me, it is just too hard on me and my coping skills are not what they used to be,.

[moosmom]

Oh Carole, I am SO sorry!

Take comfort in knowing you did all you could for Ellie-Mae.

RIP sweet beautiful girl.

Love and hugs to you, dear friend

[ChrisH]

I am so sorry Carole. Even if it is the right thing to do, it is the hardest thing. Sending much love and prayers for you both.

[carole]

Thank you both, appreciate your kind words of love and support.

It is so strange, in some ways i just want the time to come and it be over for her and me, no more suffering for her, and the stress of watching her suffer, but the other part of me never wants the time to come, because i have to say goodbye and that is so very painful to do,such a horrible feeling isn't it?

[ChrisH]

I understand perfectly Carole, that's just how I felt with Bobs, and yes it is a horrible feeling, horrible and so very sad.{{hugs}}