I have just returned from my vet, it is with a heavy heart i tell you that things are not good, it does not appear to be the vaccine, more the tumour, i had noticed she was breathing more heavy , and it probably has spread to her lungs, he asked if i wanted to let her go today or give her a wee bit longer, i chose the latter, because Ellie is doing a little better, had he asked me yesterday i would have said yes, my main concern is pain, i asked whether i could up her dose of steroids, he said yes a good idea.

If she stops eating , then it will be her time, i have already been bawling my eyes out just at the thought of it all, i knew it would come sooner than later, but i am still not ready to loose this precious one, she means so much to me, not giving up on her, she is a fighter and who knows , she may just prove all the vets wrong yet, i know wishful thinking on my part, but it is all i have to hold on to just now.