The sad part is the changes it has made in the house. She mostly stays on top of the fridge with her face in a corner. She no longer fills the role of "top cat", Giz has took over that role and bullied the others into backing down. None of the other even acknowledge she is here except for Caramella. Samantha, who has always slept in bed with me, is no longer allowed to by Giz.

I spend as much time loving and caring for her as I can and all the others are jealous and try to beat her to my lap or to her favorite spot to lay down when she does get off the fridge. Amy will lay down close to her to share that favored spot and Boo lets her.

I notice every small change in her and cry at every decline I see and it is like those declines happen overnight. That tumor was hard as a rock and firmly attached to her head. Suddenly it is softer and just hangs there loose, when I realized that it tore me up and I cried and cried.... same as when I realized she has lost her muscle mass... that really tore me up and I cried every time I looked at her for days.

Soapets, we did do surgery back in may or June and removed that one and one in her ear. The ear one came back and he removed that again. It August 3 was the recheck after that second one in her ear was removed... These pictures we taken 3 weeks after that. When I took her back to the vet he was stunned at how fast that thing had gown and the size it it. He said when they grow that fast, it is bad and if you leave one little cell when you remove it, it'll just grow back even faster and probably be even bigger. He was willing to do surgery but only if I let him do in in the next few days but we both knew she would not survive the surgery with her kidneys values always as bad as they are.

I did not want to put her through a lot of stuff or loose her so soon, and decided to just let nature take it's coarse. At times I think it has gotten in her brain and other times she is so normal acting. Yesterday her eyes were brighter than they have been in a long time, the old Boo was there in those eyes. Today, it is face in the corner again. I swear, this is harder that it was watching Mama dieing of cancer! She understood and helped make decisions on what she wanted, refusing any and all treatment for her cancer.

Thank all of you for your sweet comments, it really helps to know you all her here for me..